How To Tell If Black Lives Actually Matter To You

Last week in Nashville, a man named Jocques Scott Clemmons was shot and killed by a police officer after being pulled over for running a stop sign. When he was approached by the officer, he fled. As he ran away, he was shot twice in the back by officer Joshua Lippert–a man with a disturbing history of being suspended for excessive use of force. Jocques Scott Clemmons died in surgery, and his death left his two small boys without a father…

maxresdefault.jpgNow, before I go on, I’d like to say that–like many of you–I am friends with police officers. I know them to be good and honorable people. They are public servants who are doing what they do in an attempt to HELP people… And that fact makes any criticism of law enforcement very difficult for me. So–like many of you–when I hear about yet another black man being shot and killed as he was running AWAY, I want to believe that there was some sort of REASON this happened. My ASSUMPTION is that there was a reason he was killed… I feel I should admit that. Despite the many stories and examples to the contrary over the past few years–I am still part of a group of people who assumes that most police officers are acting appropriately. I grew up in a world where the cops were always the good guys. So when I hear that Jocques Scott Clemmons was a convicted felon (convicted of drug charges), and that he was carrying a gun, I have to admit–something in me is almost relieved. It comes as a relief to me (As if carrying a gun while being on probation is a good enough REASON to get killed as you’re running AWAY from someone who’s going to send you back to prison).


Do they really?

There’s this thing that happens inside me when I hear of an injustice like this. It keeps happening, and it grosses me right out about myself. But I want to be honest about it, because I don’t think I’m the only person who experiences this. When Trayvon Martin was killed… there was this deep sense of SOMETHING MUST BE DONE!” But if I’m being honest, I kept waiting–kept expecting that some detail would come out that would justify this. We want so badly to believe that we live in a just society… We look for things to justify the taking of these lives. We LONG for those things. And so, as soon as there is news of another life taken, there are forces at work who try to give us those things. For example, with Trayvon, we had…

  • He was actually a pretty big kid.
  • That picture they put out was a couple years old.
  • He had been suspended from school for marijuana possession.
  • There was a picture of him flipping off a camera.
  • The man who chased him down and killed him had a bloody nose.
  • Why did he run if he wasn’t doing anything wrong?

There is an uncomfortableness that comes when we encounter injustice. And we don’t like that feeling, so we look for an explanation. We look for a justification. And when we find it, we let out a small, non-verbal, comforting, “Ah, there it is…” It can be frighteningly easy to go from “SOMETHING MUST BE DONE!” to “Ah, there it is…” And so people hear about a kid being shot while carrying nothing but Skittles and an iced tea, and their soul cries out, “SOMETHING MUST BE DONE!” But the uncomfortableness of that moment is quickly assuaged by stories of being suspended for marijuana use, or a picture of him sticking his middle finger up… And through the miracle of white supremacy, people let out a soft, “Ah, there it is…” It alleviates that uncomfortableness.

And those justifications–no matter how insignificant and unrelated–are RUSHED out to us. Think about it: Facts about cases like this come out slowly… Facts like “How many shots were fired,” and “The name of the officer who pulled the trigger,” and “Releasing any video evidence of the shooting.” But please consider this: There is one piece of information that NEVER takes long at all to come out–Please consider the BLINDING SPEED at which we are informed of any criminal record the person who was just killed may have had. The very first things released to the public are always designed to JUSTIFY the killing. Here is what Metro Police immediately tweets out…


He is not described as a man who was shot in the back as he was running away… He is simply “Gunman.” And so the information that is immediately available about Jocques Scott Clemmons is never “Beloved member of the community, and father of two.” The information we given are these things: “Convicted felon, and carrying a gun.” Not only that, but they released information that turned out to be false. Initial reports said that Clemmons “abruptly” charged at the officer and made “full contact” with his body… A claim that was proven false by the release of a NEW VIDEO of the interaction.

And yes–It appears Jocques Scott Clemmons had a gun on him (though it would not be unprecedented for a gun to be planted). And yes–It is illegal for a convicted felon to possess a firearm. But even if he hadn’t been previously convicted on drug charges, it would STILL have been illegal for him to have a gun. Did you know this? It turns out that it is illegal to carry a gun in federally subsidized housing projects. I didn’t know this fact until just last week. A lot of people are unaware of this… Which is surprising with all of the protests the NRA has made to this clear violation of the 2nd Amendment, right? What’s that? The NRA doesn’t really concern itself with the 2nd Amendment rights of People of Color? Weird… Here’s something true: In this country, if you are a white person, carrying a gun is your GOD-GIVEN RIGHT! If you are a black person, possession of a gun is all the justification that is needed for someone to shoot to kill.


The James A. Cayce Housing Projects…

If you’re wondering why people keep saying BLACK LIVES MATTER… If you’re wondering why people keep insisting that BLACK LIVES MATTER… If you’re wondering why people keep DEMANDING that BLACK LIVES MATTER… This is it. Because even as a white person who considers myself an ally, I still look for the justification–I still assume there is a reason–for a black man to get shot in the back as he is running AWAY from police.

And what is frightening is how little it takes–even for me personally–to go from anger and outrage at the injustice of YET ANOTHER black life ended by law enforcement, to justifying the reason he was killed. It doesn’t take much. Because the amount it takes to go from “Outrage at injustice” to “Justifying inaction” is how much that life matters to you. I’m going to say that again… The amount it takes to go from “Outrage at injustice” to “Justifying inaction” is how much that life matters to you. So when you see people showing up by the tens of thousands to march for the Women’s March, but you only see a couple hundred protesters (almost all of them black) turn out to march for Jocques’ life–ended by two bullets in his back as he ran away–the reason for that is clear: His life didn’t matter. Not to the majority of the population, at least.


An image from the Justice4Jocques march. Photo credit: Andrew Nelles/The Tennessean

I worked in this area of Nashville for years. I saw the kids who lived in those projects every week at their failing school. I knew fourth graders reading at a kindergarten level. When I talked with teachers about the daunting task of educating those kids, I was told that roughly one in three had a parent in prison. I tried to talk about “goals” with kids who–at ten years old–already had an understanding that their future involved them “ending up in prison or dead” (and as it was nearly 10 years ago that I was there, I can safely assume that many of those teenagers and twenty-somethings are probably now in one of those two places).  I watched as real estate and home prices around those projects SKYROCKETED in value… As white people moved into those homes. I watch as people in positions of power–instead of resolving to FIX those schools that are failing these kids–attempt to make cases for taking funding from those schools in order to pay for vouchers for private schools that most of those families could never afford. I watch as this killing comes mere months after a report (called “Driving While Black”) is released (and largely ignored), even though it showed statistical evidence of racial profiling within Nashville law enforcement.

When Gideon’s Army (the people who put out the “Driving While Black” report) went back and checked officer Lippert’s 2016 statistics, they found a couple disturbing facts:

  •  For officer Lippert, “90% of the stops he made were of black drivers,” a rate that was “disproportionate to the black population of any of the census tracts he patrolled” and was “20% to 50% higher than other officers in the same areas.”
  • Also, officer Lippert “searched drivers at astronomical rates. His rate for conducting any search (30.6%) is five times greater than officers patrolling the same census tracts (5.1%).”

Here is what those two facts look like in graph form. Again, you should READ THIS



Listen. There are a lot of horribly racist people out there. When a GoFundMe page was set up to help cover the Clemmons family’s funeral costs, FIVE of the fifteen comments on the page were justifications for his death (while another attempted to inform people of a GoFundMe set up for Joshua Lippert). But we cannot think that racism is limited to the sorts of people who make comments on a family’s funeral fundraiser like “he was a thug asking for it” and “he should of listened to the police” and “Got what he deserved” and “Don’t make it sound like he was the victim.” We look for scapegoats, like Dylann Roof, to sacrifice. But the darkness of racist is not a “THEM” problem… It is an “US” problem. And the best way to solve an “US” problem is to focus on where it is a “ME” problem. What is wrong with them?” is an easy question to ask. “What is wrong with us?” is a little bit harder. “What is wrong with me?” is where the real hard work takes place.

So I want to confess that I am disgusted with myself. I am disgusted by how little it takes to relieve that feeling of “SOMETHING MUST BE DONE!” I am grossed out by how small the fault in a person’s character can be in order to begin to justify the unjustifiable. I am deeply disappointed by how much injustice I am willing to endure in the world and in my own community. I am saddened by my inclination to assume that there must have been a “good” reason why yet another black person was killed. And I am ashamed that there have been many times in my life where Black Lives DON’T Matter to me… At least they don’t seem to matter enough to possibly risk offending the friends I have in law enforcement. Do black lives matter to me? Well… Am I showing up? How easy is it for me to justify yet another life ended by a police bullet? Am I looking for an “Ah, there it is…” to ease the uncomfortable feeling inside me? How easy is it for me to ignore the voice inside me insisting that “SOMETHING MUST BE DONE!”


Let’s hope so…

Over 10,000 people showed up to protest for the Women’s March in Nashville… And that’s a good thing. When a white officer right here in Nashville killed a black man by shooting him in the back as he ran away, only a couple hundred folks showed up to protest… We should probably ask ourselves why that is. Here is something true: White people need to show up in support of black lives. If the only voices saying “BLACK LIVES MATTER” are the voices of People of Color, then there are not enough voices saying those words. If you missed your chance to respond to the “SOMETHING MUST BE DONE!” welling up inside of you, the good news is you will have another chance tonight. There will be a Justice4Jocques event tonight at Legislative Plaza at the Capital. And if you can’t make it tonight, you will have another chance tomorrow to stand up. And the next day. And the next… A chance to RESPOND to (instead of silencing) that voice inside of you that cries out “THIS IS NOT OKAY!” We cannot allow small things to transform our OUTRAGE AT INJUSTICE into justifying inaction.

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6 Responses to How To Tell If Black Lives Actually Matter To You

  1. Dennis Pennington says:

    Basically he was killed for running a Stop sign .

    • theboeskool says:

      Seriously though, if a black man is killed by police, all it takes to justify the death (in the minds of the majority of white America) is his possession of a gun.

      “He had a GUN? Well, he was asking for it…”

      They are willing to talk about a second effing Civil War over their 2nd Amendment right to “keep & bear,” but if a black person was armed when they were gunned down by cops, that is all the justification that is needed.

      • Dennis Pennington says:

        According to the article it appears that the cop didn’t know he had a gun until he killed him

  2. mihipte says:

    I think I’ve mentioned this before, but I still think it’s relevant. Racism is the very worthy target of this iteration. It should be copied for all the issues we’re grappling with. Whatever else we do, dialogue is mandatory for the health of our society.

  3. “We want so badly to believe that we live in a just society… We look for things to justify the taking of these lives.”

    I love you for this.

    I think we’re baked to be like this, to rationalize everything to “make sense of it.” It’s how we maintain something close to sanity in a world that is full of random and unpredictable events.

    We make God out to be like this, too, I think, where if we just do X and pray Y he will act Z. And if you skip X or Y, you surely cannot expect Z, because God is a formula waiting for the precipitating human act. Well, I know it doesn’t work that way, but God how I wish it did, because then my actions would bring about his justice. And since he’s not doing that Z in spite of my X and the Y, then I don’t think we can demand that the world make sense.

    But with that said–I get compassion/empathy fatigue because dear God in heaven it just happens all the damned time, and nothing I do seems to stop any of it. Yelling and praying and swearing and marching and writing and speaking and crying–and still my black brothers and sisters are shot down, again and again, and the cycle starts right up, and these people who are my equals in the sight of God have no kinsman-redeemer here on earth for them.

    I don’t know. I just do not know sometimes what to do next. But I know that after another night of sleep and prayer and contemplation, I’ll just need to pick it up again tomorrow, speak out against craziness and madness and hatred masquerading as rationality and order, and I’ll have to wait on the news to tell me who will be killed tomorrow by police officers who insist, really, they are here to protect and defend.

  4. Ricky says:

    You seem to fail to realize that its not about just the fact that he had a gun but that he was walking around a presumably high crime area with and ILLEGAL gun. I don’t see how you can compare a law abiding citizen that has went through a background check and all the red tape to carry a gun to a person with a background of crime carrying a loaded gun around that comes from an area with a high murder rate. Everyone is so quick to defend the criminals and attack the cops who have a very difficult job to do. I’m not saying the guy should have been shot but if people know that all they have to do is run and they will get away because the cop is more worried about the bad press and any consequences that may come to him for doing his job then all that is going to happen is people will do so and we will have a lot of cops who figure it’s just not worth going after black people regardless of guilt because they will be attacked for it. People on the left like to make it out like they care so much about black people but they do everything possible to make self improvement impossible for them. Including but not limited to always making excuses for them when they commit crimes blaming their upbringing poverty environment white people slavery white privilege, all these things are factors of course but what happens when you constantly make excuses for people (it gives them an escape from responsibility which all but ensures that the behaviors will continue), they build abortion clinics near every ghetto causing the deaths of millions of unborn black lives, they focus on the times when a black gets shot by a white police officer but ignore the epidemic of black on black murders all over our country, they get them addicted to government assistance which ruins their sense of pride and self sufficiency and leaves them enslaved to the politicians that provide the things that they have forgotten or been taught they can’t get on their own. But of course I am forgetting the times we are living in, the truth isn’t important it’s the message that counts and what kind of message is personal responsibility. I mean how is it going to make the poor black youth feel if we tell them that their situation in life is the the fault of themselves and those closest to them and not some unseen force like racism and white privilege. Then they might start thinking that their future is in there hands and they may start to realize that they don’t need the government for all their basic needs and then they may realize that the government actually impedes success and is not the key to it and you can only imagine what that realization would do the the democrat party. The left likes to accuse us of racism because we don’t buy into all the social justice causes as if this demonstrates that we just don’t care about them, but part of the problem with this is that it rests on the flawed assumption that these policies actually help black people. The truth if you care to know it is that racism exists on both sides of the isle but the fact is we believe that if we just hold them to the to the same standards that we would hold ourselves to that they will rise to meet the challenges in life with a sense of pride and accomplishment and purpose that they will never know as long as the are being held down with things such as “welfare and social justice”. It’s my opinion that to treat them like victims and like they can’t survive without government help and like the crimes they commit aren’t their fault is to treat them like children like they are not our equals and that is true racism. Sorry for any grammatical errors I have made, I am just a humble factory worker and I thank you for making it though my comment. You have every right to disagree with what I have said but know that these are my sincere thoughts.

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